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2014 – Workout #21

Going to do some bench with Jake. I’m not feeling much like it but sometimes when it feels like everything is all wrong all I want to do is forget it all the gym helps.  And for some reason (I doubt I am alone) but lifting helps me.  Doing something that you didn’t seem possible helps you forget those things that happened to you that you also didn’t think would be possible.

If you have ever wanted to run away from it all and just leave everything behind, there is no closer feeling for me then crossfit. When you have left it all on that dirty mat in a sweaty pile of exhaustion. When you are going to lift something heavy over your head, off the ground or do some insane workout scheme your brain forgets it all. There is no closer feeling of leaving it all.

You see thats what the gym is for me from time to time, its the place where I can be myself.  Its a sanctuary, I know it sounds stupid but its true. After workouts where I’m too exhausted to move I stare at the ceiling sweat pooled in my eyes, little stars around the lights music blaring heart pounding even louder, thats as close to away from it all I can get.

Today wasn’t perfect, I wasn’t completely focused.  I was actually mad, and I took it out on the bench, each rep. I’d breath in and push that rage out and it helped. And of course how can you be upset when you are around Jake, one of the best people I’ve ever met.

135 x 20ish
155 x 18
185 x12
225 x 8
255 x 6
265 x 6
275 x 4
305 x 1
315 x 1
325 x 1


I worked on some from rest pushes all the way up to 255 or 225 I can’t remember.  These have to be worked in, they are awesome.

My one rep I felt pretty good about, I really need to keep working at these if I’m going to get better.  Jake got a 335×1 hes building past me,  I need to fix the diet and get better at taking protein after a workout.  Just need to get it back.

I Know I’ve been away from posting for awhile – Here are some hightlights

I wanted to link a couple of posts that are kind of key to my blog, looking back over the time i’ve started this and where I am today its been a heck of a ride! So click on them and tell me what you think.

I know its been awhile and I know I have a few (ok a couple) loyal readers and even some that posted more that emailed and I do have reasons for being gone none of which are good enough to explain but I’ll try.

I’ve had a good summer, playing a TON of softball.  I’ve also been working out as much as I can but not as often as I would like. My diet has slid a little bit but thats going to be fixed.

I realized this at the granite games this weekend… Fitness is really important to me and I need to work harder and take it far more serious, make it a priority and that includes the kitchen.  I met some amazing people at all levels of the sport of crossfit.

Some Posts I like from my blog:



http://fitness.nickbukosky.com/2012/06/16/2012-workout-58/ < My first crossfit workout ever



Now some things that I have done with the group and found to be awesome. We did the pushup challenge, coordinating with 20 some people to do 20,000 pushups over the course of a year!  It was awesome!  A lot didn’t make it but for those that did I know they felt great about it, I was happy to be part of it.

We did the tough mudder.  I know it was crazy and I know the group did great things.  I regret that Kristen didn’t get to do it with her gym friends.  Knowing now what I do about crossfit and the relationships created it must have been so hard for her!  But I will say from a selfish standpoint I am so happy to be able and look back and see her smiling face next to me while do this.

The whole life challenge and the sisu nutrition challenge.  These were awesome lessons that I learned A TON from. These things were the base of my exploration of the relationship between food and working out. They also gave me an all new perspective on how I treat my body and the mental side of food for me. I also did VERY well on each of them, I really worked hard. It has a lasting impact on me that I have yet to dive into personally OR on this blog.

Participating in the crossfit open.  I know I didn’t talk about it a lot and to be honest its a bit embarrassing. I knew going into it I wouldn’t go anywhere (from a ranks perspective) but little did I know how much fun I would have.  Little did I know I would surprise myself and be able to do things I didn’t think I could do. I may not have done well on paper but my life was changed because I did this.

So whats the future look like?  Well I know I have to get my blog caught up get those workouts in there some horrible ones like eve and filthy fifty and you guys need to read about them.  I am hopefully working on getting an updated theme and some better looks for the site too.

But most of all I need workout more, increase my intensity, increase my skills to improve my ability to move this heavy shit and lift it over my head.  I’m looking forward to a good winter of training hard and achieving things I never thought possible.

2013 – May Discussion – Scaling

I want to talk about something that is brought up a lot in CrossFit but lately has been coming into more discussions outside of the CrossFit gym. (Yes, I refused to use the word Box there.) The reason it gets brought up is because it has to be. You can’t talk about pushing yourself and becoming a more awesome you without how to do that.

I read an article today about scaling. It can be found at the end of this post.

The article really challenged my thoughts about scaling. It brought to the forefront of my brain some things I hadn’t thought of: The ability to do something right should take priority over the amount of weight on the bar. How do you become better if you can’t get the bar off the ground? How do you do a set of ten pull-ups if you can’t do one?

There are many ways to look at scaling. There are legitimate ways to scale, and then there is just plain bad, only hurting yourself types of scaling.

Some examples of scaling:

  • Using no weight or using less weight than perscribed 
  • Using a band to assist the movement
  • Jumping pull-ups
  • Knee push-ups
  • Lower rep scheme
  • Singles instead of doubles

Some examples of cheating yourself (and the people you workout with):

  • Not finding the bottom of your squat
  • Cutting corners while running / doing less distance
  • Not opening your hips at the top of a box jump
  • Bad rep counting
  • Half pull-ups
  • Skipping sets

Shouldn’t your obvious goal to become better and more awesome mean that you want to eventually not use a band for pull-ups? Get off your knees on push-ups? Find the bottom of that squat and get your hips open at the top of your box jumps? Lift a heavier weight when you can control it and do it safely? All those things are going to make you way more awesome. Because I will tell you, your inability to do an overhead squat is NOT going to be fixed by adding more weight to the bar. I say this with experience.

One thing I have to remember is everyone’s workout is his or her own, just like a golf game or skiing down a hill. Heck, even a run is someone else’s. We all have to take ownership to the things that we do. We all work out or do those activities for different reasons. What motivates one person to run may not be the same thing that motivates another to lift heavy items over his or her head.

With that being said, I don’t like to see people compare themselves to those who don’t scale, like the athletes who don’t cut corners and safely push themselves to complete workouts as prescribed. Then people start talking about how they “beat” someone else in a workout or on the field. That’s the part that starts to change the discussion.

Take the running analogy. So you finished with a better time, but you ran less distance. In a comparison, who won? So you hit the ball farther, but my bat isn’t shaved. Who hit the ball farther? So you finished your workout 5 minutes ahead of me, but you cut corners on your 400M run, and your ability to count is questionable at best, and by the way the bottom of your squat is, well, nowhere near the bottom… But you were first to get your time up, first to show everyone you “won.”

You are probably asking, who cares?!? Why compare yourself at all?!? Two reasons: 1) I’m competitive. I want to win. 2) That’s how WE ALL get better. I won’t elaborate on point #1…

But you see, if you didn’t have Jordon to compare yourself to, what pushes you to get better? Steve Prefontaine doing the impossible makes you believe the things once thought too hard are now possible. Tiger Woods recovering from amazingly bad shots to par or even eagle gets you out on the course.

Take it down a notch (or two). My brother has always been a runner, and he’s pretty good. His friend, we’ll call him MJLaw, hasn’t always been a runner. When MJLaw decided he wanted to be a runner, he put his sights on my brother. He wanted to beat him in a race. Race after race, he lost, he got closer, he pushed harder by chasing than he ever would have being in the front, or not chasing at all. In turn that made my brother have to run faster, train harder, push through things he would have quit to simply stay ahead. MJLaw was close to a win one race, but something got into my brother, and he pushed past with seconds left in the race. Was he upset? NO! You see, that was his best race. He did the best he could and came up a bit short. Time to train harder, do better, and I have no doubt in my mind one of these races he will win.

It’s the hungry that make the best better and keep moving the mark of what great is. Those with the passion and the drive do amazing things that they never thought possible because of competition.

Being competitive gets a bad rap, just like everything else, right? You do CrossFit? Oh, you must be a pretentious a-hole with a superiority complex. Drive a cool car? Must be going through a midlife crisis. You like to lift weights at Lifetime? Must be a meat head, blah blah blah.  Not all people who are competitive are jerks who will do whatever it takes, including cheating to win.

You see, that’s how I feel about scaling. You are cheating yourself if you are able to complete the movement, lift the weight, run the distance, pull yourself up without hurting yourself. If you are able to do a workout in 8 minutes that takes an average for others 15 minutes to complete, you are cheating yourself.

So go ahead and write your 8 minute time up on the board while I am struggling  through the third round of a five round workout. I will be over there sweating and working hard to finish it as designed, as prescribed. Don’t think I won’t think less of your bloated score because, yeah, I did notice the set of 10 that was supposed to be 15. Yeah, I noticed those knee push-ups when I know you can do them legit. For those of us who are in this to get stronger, faster, and be better next time, your reward may not be the fastest score. But I promise, when we look at ourselves in the mirror we are going to like what we see just a little bit more each and every day. We do this by not scaling, not cheating, not cutting corners, not quitting, because shortcuts to a better you are always fake.

While my general thoughts about scaling haven’t changed, I do see points at which I can support scaling.  I still want to do everything as best I can. I am still going to be egotistical about my own workouts, but I understand and can support others’ choices. But I hope by reading this it makes you take a look at your own ability to push yourself. Or heck, maybe you don’t want to be pushed at all. That’s okay too. But maybe just try it from time to time. It may become something that you start to like… dare I say even crave?

You’re probably saying, gosh, you are all over the place in this post! Just answer the question straight. Are you saying it’s okay to scale, or are you saying you should never scale? The answer is simple: Yes.

A couple of reads:



2013 – April Discussion – Can’t Be Perfect

I’ll start off this post by apologizing for skipping out on posting something to think about last month. No excuses for not getting something up for you. I have been busy working out and busy in my personal life. Summer is coming (eventually), and I have been on the softball fields as much as possible.

I am going to talk to about being perfect in this (last) month’s discussion. I recently finished a nutrition challenge at the gym, and I was stubborn, strict, and did very well in the challenge points-wise. I was almost perfect in terms of points. I was regimented on making workouts, doing a post workout drink, taking fish oil, getting enough sleep, and doing mobility.

Before that, there was another nutrition challenge. It was the same type of thing, and I was strict and set up a good foundation to do really well on another challenge. Before that, I was on my own, trying to be perfect with my diet.  While these challenges taught me a great deal on how my body reacts to different foods and different things, I kind of got obsessed about it. I focused on it daily, and it was in the front of my mind. I am sure my friends got annoyed. I’m sure my wife rolled her eyes at me from time to time.

But I also made some great friends. I’ve helped some people close to me see that through some better choices with diet and exercises they too can make changes in their lives. I’ve learned a ton, and there have actually been a few people that asked for advice instead of me just spewing it out to them unsolicited. And being honest, I had fun. Competition is fun, and I was good at it. I like to attempt to lead by example, and that can be done good or bad. Watch what happens when you eat right. People around you want to as well.

The problem is it’s not easy. It isn’t really easy (or cheap) to prepare all your food. It isn’t always convenient either. And you probably feel like a tool bringing your own Tupperware to a party with good food in it. The sideways looks aren’t attractive. Then there is answering all the questions and trying not to sound like an ass. That can be difficult as well.

It isn’t easy to make it to the gym daily. Bad days, late getting out of work, tired from the night before, activities that take up a day or two in the week.  OMG it’s leg day?!? I am feeling sick…

You see, thinking about going is easy, especially if it’s tomorrow you are thinking about. Tomorrow is always going to better in terms of the gym. Stop that type of thinking.

It isn’t easy to always be positive. It can be exhausting, especially when the world makes it so easy to be negative. People flock to the negative; it gets so much attention. Positive people get strung up as pretentious and “higher than thou” and soon become jaded toward putting that energy into being positive. Don’t get me wrong. A lot of people approach it wrong too, on both sides of the coin.

One big thing I try to tell people is just because you have a bad food day, bad workout day, etc., it doesn’t have to be all lost. If you have a bad lunch and then eat a cookie, or have some sugary deliciousness or some fast food, it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t work out that day. Miss a workout because happy hour sounded better that day? It doesn’t mean you should skip your fish oil or not do some mobility. If anything, it’s the opposite. One (or a couple) bad choice doesn’t mean toss your arms up and say, “Well, it’s over. Let’s start tomorrow.”  That’s just treating yourself poorly and not giving yourself enough credit. You have that strength to lift the bar one more time. You have that strength to push through that last 1/4 mile. Just like you have that strength to put down the crappy food and cook something whole for yourself.

But you will notice something: Crappy food and poor behavior will spawn more crappy food and more poor behavior. Didn’t drink enough water one day? After your body has gotten accustomed to having it for a few months, you will feel it.  Try doing a 30 minute intense workout after that. You are going to ask yourself, “What happened?” (Psst, it’s the water you DIDN’T drink.) Ever notice that sloth-like feeling after you eat fast food but NOT whole foods? Yeah, it’s really noticeable after a few days of it.

I’m not going to say being perfect is bad; it isn’t. It’s great, and it feels great.  It builds self-esteem, and the results are crazy! What I’m saying is that you shouldn’t beat yourself up and give up. Have a bad day, or maybe a bad week? Heck, you can have a bad month, but that doesn’t mean all the previous work is gone. You shouldn’t give up or quit just because of some bad behavior.

I have learned that through repetition, you’ll see the strongest results. Building habits of GOOD behavior that soon become the norm. For instance, over the past few weeks I haven’t been strict on my diet, but I have built a good foundation of making good workout choices. I have made good choices on supplements, getting fish oil ,and getting more sleep. I try to do some mobility work on a regular basis. These good habits have become the normal over time.

I may not be the perfect anything. My front squats aren’t great. I’m not the greatest brother, friend, or husband. My over head squats are horrific, and my box jumps aren’t something you would write home about. I’m not always the most positive person. My diet isn’t always a plate of awesomeness. You see, I’m not perfect. But I work hard, and I always try to do the right thing.

So while this whole thing could be interpreted as an apology for missing last month’s installment, it could also be used as motivation to get myself back on track diet-wise. I think it’s open to interpretation.

2013 – February Discussion – It’s the other white meat, again.

As I stare down at my Tupperware of chicken, I am reminded of the previous day’s pork. It gets me thinking about food and diet and how far I’ve come.  I remember when I started CrossFit. Jason was talking about diet and one member said, “This is the part where he’s going to tell us we can’t eat pizza.”  And for the most part he didn’t. But he pointed out that diet is a big part of life and of fitness.

I’ll be honest. I kind of ignored that thing called a diet and just moved on with my life.  Even as I started CrossFit, got more into working out, played softball, went to lifetime lifetime, I was doing something active pretty much every day. I would try to eat “right.” What I didn’t realize was that I knew absolutely nothing about what eating right was.

My early versions of eating right meant salads filled with dressings and bars filled with sugar. Rich sauces on everything. When I ate out, I’d just eat a little less and not get an appetizer or dessert. I’d spent a better part of a decade eating out daily, most days at least twice, and ordering in pizza minimally once a week.  I would get in the car and ask, “Where am I going to eat?”  Not because there were so many choices, but because the choices of where I hadn’t been lately were so limited.

Then something came up that I was asked to participate in called the Whole Life Challenge.  I declined, saying I didn’t need that to control my eating, and I could do it on my own if I “needed” it. I wasn’t convinced that I did need to make a change.  Things were going fine, I was dropping some weight, and I was working out.  A couple of weeks passed, and a good friend gave me the hard sale on it. She called me out, and she gave me a guilt trip for needing to be more supportive and back her up on things like this. She was aggressive. I agreed to do it.

When I started it, I thought to myself, I can do anything for a little while and then I can go back to “normal” when it’s all over.  I also thought I could kind of just half ass it and go into it with good intentions.  Well, I’m here to tell you guys the road to hell is paved with good intentions.  My hell is being fat.

What most people don’t understand about me (and I’m sure with a lot of others in similar situations) is eating was something I did all the time.  It was planned out and calculated.  If I was going to be eating with people, I would sometimes eat before so I could eat less around them.  If I was grilling for my buddies, I’d eat a burger or a hash brown before everyone came to eat.  That way when I ate one with the group, it would appear I ate like everyone else.

I’d even convinced myself that I was eating like everyone else.  The guilt I would feel from pre-eating or hiding bad food that I was eating was an enormous weight that got bigger as my body got bigger.  It’s hard to describe the guilt after a bad meal that I knew I didn’t need but ate anyway.

I also operated on a reward system. I’d reward a good workout with fast food.  Ever stand in line at a Taco Johns covered in sweat from a workout?  I did, many times.  I’d eat extra food because I thought I needed it because of a good workout.  Or if I didn’t have desert at a restaurant, I’d eat something equally bad at home instead. Rewarding good things like working out or not taking seconds with more food… It’s a slippery slope.  I could always justify my eating, always.

When you get a role in your life and you serve it for years, it becomes part of who you are, almost your entire being.  I was the guy that ate big and fast, and I liked that role.  I could eat more, and I always had room.  My friends knew me as that, and I was identified as that.  I played my roll very well.  Even with the shame and the horrible self image, I still fulfilled my role.  Why? Because I felt I had to.  People will say it’s easy. I’m here to tell you it isn’t.

But it doesn’t have to be that way; you can change your role in life.  Fitness changed my life and forever will have an impact on me. When I was in high school I found the weight room.  When everything was going to hell or I needed an escape, the weight room was it.  Being on a team (though I rarely played) and being a part of something meant something to me. I lost it for some years, but I’ve found it again.  Making time to work out is as important to me as making time to sleep.  This won’t be easy either; making changes never really is.

The Whole Life Challenge brought to the forefront how bad the food I ate was for me.  Not only did I learn a ton about what I should be eating, how much sleep to get, and how much water to drink, I learned I have the capacity for really good self control around food.  I didn’t half ass this challenge; I crushed it.  I was going for 15 minute bike rides at the end of the night (after workouts). I was rolling out and stretching and doing mobility every day.  I was drinking water and cutting out things that days previous I said I could never live without.

No bread, no sugar, no dairy, no peanut butter, no corn, no potatoes. HOW WILL I LIVE?  I purchased half of a cow and found a new love for steak.  I discovered a new love for cooking!  I read an awesome post that said if it doesn’t have a face, soul, or a mother, don’t eat it… haha.  Very true.   And I was (am) living this new found love for good food. Food where the ingredient list is the food item.  What’s the ingredient list on my roast with carrots?   Roast and carrots (and some salt, pepper, etc.). You know what isn’t in the stuff I eat now?  Things I can’t pronounce or don’t know what they are.  Go ahead. Challenge yourself one day to look at the food items you eat and what’s in those items.  You’ll be shocked.

I learned every meal shouldn’t be so delicious you can’t stand it. It doesn’t need to be filled with rich sugars, sweet sauces, and breaded and deep fried to be good.  Food is good, good food is great.  Everything doesn’t need an ingredient list a mile long to be good.  What happened to eating to survive, or eating because your body needs it?  I’m not sure when things changed for me, but I am changing them back.  One paleo meal at a time.

At what point did my meals become something all new?  Something that had to create an all new feeling of full?  I would spend hours after these rich meals tired, run down, and feeling fat.  When did I change how I needed food in order to fulfill something else?  When did you?

Food doesn’t have to be boring because you don’t have half a loaf of bread with it.  Food doesn’t have to be filled with crappy stuff in order to be good.  I’ve found a love for cooking and for food, and best of all it’s great for me.

My workouts have gotten insanely awesomer (yes it’s a word). I’ve gone from just trying to survive a workout to killing them.  I’ve gone from pure hell to, well… let’s be honest. They are still pure hell.  But my strength, my endurance, have all gone through the roof.  My ability to get things done is four times what it was. My mind is clear and strong.  I’m feeding my body what it needs to do better every single day.

By the way, I finished 82nd out of 7098 in the Whole Life Challenge.

So will I never eat another carb, drink another glass of milk (it’s been 8 months since I had a glass of milk), or have another sweet dessert?  Of course I will; those things are good.  What I will not do is return to a life of indulgence and eating crappy food for every meal, every day.  I won’t ever be as fat as I was, not on my watch.

Could you pull off a cleaner diet? Do you think you could cut out processed foods from your daily regiment? If not, why not? Just like with anything, whether working out, a diet, or a sport, the only way to realize your potential is to try. So ask yourself, why not? What do you have to lose? Give yourself a goal. You may learn you can do something you never thought you could.

Want to learn more about it?  Email me nick@nickbukosky.com, leave a comment here, do whatever you want. I’ll talk to you about it.  Want to learn about paleo?  Want to talk about zone?  Have you had success? Got an awesome recipe? Want to talk CrossFit?!?!?  Talk to me, because I still have parts of my old role in my life: I talk a lot. 😉  And my new role, one of fitness and improving your life, is one that I much rather talk about then the guy that once ate 87 pizza roles after eating a burger and hotdog an hour before.  My new role will add years to my life and life to my years.


Success is …

I want to share a great quote.


 Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out…   Collier, Robert



2013 – January Discussion – Goals vs Results

This is the first installment of a monthly discussion. Keep in mind I know there aren’t a lot of followers of my blog, so some of this narrative is really talking to myself. I am usually bluntly honest and sometimes overly critical of myself.

The first one I want to talk about is Goals vs Results. A lot of people mix up these two. I’ve spent a lot of time talking to a lot of people (some solicited, some unsolicited) about my eating habits, my workouts, and the life changes I have implemented over the course of the past few months. So many people talk about how they want to make changes, how they would like to improve their health.

The common theme is always, I want to lose weight or I want to get into shape. My comment is always the same thing: You can do it! These comments are always followed by a but, including mine. Everyone will say, But I don’t have time. I don’t have money. I don’t have this. I don’t have that. I can’t eat well because my spouse won’t go for it. I can’t because [insert excuse here].

My you can do it comment is followed by “But you have to put in the work.” Was it easy putting on all the weight I did over the years? Not really. I went out to eat a lot. I ate super crappy and felt horribly after almost every meal. It became the normal feeling of eating. My workouts were good, but then I would reward myself with crappy food. Ever stand in line at fast food with your shirt still soaked with sweat from a workout? I have. So it isn’t going to be easy to take the weight off.

Remember when you went from junior high sports practice to high school, how much harder it was? Remember the three a day practices after a summer of doing nothing? It took adjustments, you had to figure it out, and you had to push hard to get through. Now extrapolate that into 20+ years instead of a summer. Working out is going to be hard. But I am here to help.

Set goals and get results.

You see, a goal is not something like, I want to lose 20 pounds. That is a result. A better goal may be something like:

I want to run two miles in 20 minutes.

Then you put together a plan. Depending on your starting point and where you are at fitness wise, maybe walking one mile without stopping is the first step. Then move up to some jogging/walking until you can jog the entire mile. Then work your way to running one mile hard. Then try jogging / walking two miles and keep at it. Your plan should include a schedule. Maybe it’s to run four times a week for six weeks. Pick the time and make it happen.

The result of this very well may be the 20 pounds you wanted to lose.

Another goal instead of I want to lose weight is I want to eat clean for 60 days Start off slow. Don’t just think, I am going to dive into a full zone diet tomorrow. Let’s go to the store tonight! For most people, it will not work. Go slower. The progression for something like this would be starting off with hydration; drink half your body weight (pounds) in ounces of water every day. Then cut out sugar completely, cut out junk food and eating out, cook healthy items at home, etc. After a few weeks, you will notice where you started and where you currently are will be dramatically different. But at no point did you just go cold turkey and deny yourself how you were living in the past 20 years.  hat type of thing is why most “diets” people use fail.

The results will probably be that your clothes fitting better, you won’t feel so crappy, and you will lose weight.

Want to bring your CrossFit total to 1000 pounds? That’s the result of a solid plan. A plan that includes many, many steps. Examples of this are things like an eight week lifting program, a six week running regiment, going to the gym five times a week for eight weeks, etc. Start by setting lots of goals. When you meet them, you will get the results you earned.

As you progress, continue to set goals. Be aggressive with them; don’t let yourself slack off. When you complete your goals, test your results. If you don’t see improvement, then look at the plan and make improvements, or take an honest look at yourself and see if you had something to do with not getting the results you desired.

The point of this whole thing is to challenge the way you think about getting results.  Results come from good planning and goal setting. Good planning is created from setting difficult but achievable goals. Goals are achieved through hard work and discipline.

Tell me what results you want, lets create some goals!

2013 – Workout #5

Starting the week of with Jason at SISU

The warmup he just gave us some time, nothing specific.  I did some push presses, with my shoulder I stopped at 185.  I did some pushups, situps a couple pull-ups etc etc.

The workout

7 Minute Ladder
3 – Thruster (100/65)
3 – Chest To bar Pull-ups (100/65)
6 – Thruster (100/65)
6 – Chest To bar Pull-ups (100/65)
9 – Thruster (100/65)
9 – Chest To bar Pull-ups (100/65)
” ” So Just keep adding three reps until you run out of time.

Looking at this workout I thought I would have some trouble with it, not with the thrusters but with the chest to bar.  To be honest I haven’t really done chest to bar pull-ups ever.  But during the warmup I did pop out a couple and was surprised at my ability to do them.

We are going to partner up and one person scores it while the other workouts out and then flip it.  I was partnered up with a guy named Derick, I hadn’t met him until tonight.  He looks like a runner and is probably going to murder this workout. (as it turns out he didn’t murder it, and he is a runner but this was one of his first classes)

I do not look like a runner.  Insight in coming.  I dont’ know what I look like now.  A year ago I would have called myself fat.  Six months ago, stalky like I was lifting a lot getting stronger etc.  Now here I am six months into crossfit.  I am not a crossfitter, I am pretty much the fattest guy in most every class.  I don’t lift like I used to, I don’t run like I used to (I run better) but I don’t have an identity anymore.  Its kind of an odd thing.  Oh well moving on.

I made it through the 12 set of thrusters and was working on the pullups when time expired.  I think I did about 25 pullups that last set of 12, Just could not get my chest to touch the bar.  I will admit there were probably a couple reps that maybe it was just my shirt that made it to the bar.  But I worked hard on this workout and I felt great about it.  Doing pull-ups on my own just feels awesome, I hope that never goes away.

My Score 51




A year in review

In December 2011 I said I was going to workout in 2012, I was going to work hard and get things done.  I wanted to have a great year, I wanted to have fun and sweat.

The start of the year was good, I was running I was lifting but I was also eating crappy food and lots of it.  I was also taking days off when I didn’t need to.  I was going to be doing the tough mudder in May.  After that event I really kind slid…

The first 7 months of the year I did 60 some workouts, some low intensity, some just lifting, or running etc.  Then out of the blue crossfit which had been being yelled at me by a friend, came up by surprise and bit me in the ass.

After starting crossfit in July I worked out more consistently and at a higher intensity, more so then I ever thought I would physically be able to.  I have learned things about myself that I didn’t even know were in there.

I played a ton of softball in the summer, playing on multiple teams, playing multiple games a night, sometimes even 4 games.  I even was able to play in a few tournaments and met some great guys, softball was a blast!  But sadly that’s not going to keep me in shape, and it didn’t.

I ended the year doing 141 workouts for the year.  So in the remaining 5 months of the year I did 80 some workouts, higher intensity far greater results.

So is crossfit the answer?  I guess you’ll just have to email me and ask, I’ll talk your ear off about it.  I won’t take all your time with this post, but seriously email me comment here whatever, I will talk all you want.


My Weight Loss

I have had a lot of people ask me one question lately.

“What is that shirt you have on? Let me read it.”  (Think shirt blog)

Ok, two questions.

How much weight have you lost?

About 50 pounds.

In late June/early July I was again at my heaviest, around 255 pounds.  In November when I last weighed myself, I was 207. In December of 2011, I also was around 250.  If you look back, you can see in December I had lost about 15 pounds at the end of the month.

But wait. You said 240 pounds in June on your drivers license and on this blog!

Yes I did. I was ashamed.

And you see, that’s what being heavy is for me (and I would guess a lot of people): embarrassing, shameful, regretful, awful.  I was all of those things every single day. Even when I didn’t show it, I was.  Worst of all there was no one to blame but myself.

People say any number of things to justify their behavior, to justify bad habits, to give reasoning to something unreasonable.  We all know ourselves better than anyone knows us.  We know exactly what to say to ourselves that will allow us to skip a workout, eat a bad meal, slack off.  It doesn’t take much convincing when you know exactly what emotional card to deal yourself.

If you look back at what I documented on this blog, you can see the weight coming off from December to February. It was all diet.  I was trying to eat better, quit eating out, and lose weight; those were my goals.  You can see in June I gained it all back and was failing—again.  To be honest, I don’t even know where that time went.

Some things to think about that don’t pertain to the “number,” as weight is so commonly referred to: Those shorts I’m wearing in the first and second pictures don’t even fit. They fall off.  The swim trunks I wore in Dec 2011 didn’t fit in Dec 2012. They fell to the floor.  I couldn’t tie them  That first shirt is an XXL. I wore those for a a long time. None of them fit anymore. Here is a picture of an old XXL that I found in my pile. I am stronger and have better endurance now than I have ever had.

I am not perfect. I don’t eat perfectly every day. I don’t make it to the gym everyday.  But I am improving, learning, and getting better at it.  You see, it took years to develop the bad habits, the weight, the mentality.  It’s going to take years to get out of it as well.

Want to learn more about it?  Email Me.  I will give you as much information about how I did it, what I am doing now, and my plans for the future.


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Want to have some fun?  Pop out each of these pictures and lay them side by side.